Deep Doo-Doo and I Lied (October 2010)

From October 23, 2010

 If I don't find some work really soon I'm going to be in some deep doo-doo.  That's right, Mary Poppins uses the word Doo-Doo.   I'm running out of time when it comes to getting a WA state driver's license, plates for the car (which will total about $100); pet licenses (about $30 for them if I can get the proof of spay and vaccinations); and other miscellaneous items (stupid printer ink) -- not including rent and utilities and phone, I've got no way to pay for these.

The girls talked to their dad about paying for half of their dance classes (on top of child support) and all he said was "We'll talk about it later."  He has not paid any child support this month, but since we technically aren't divorced yet, I guess he doesn't think he needs to worry about it.  He said he would send something anyway and he has the ability to deposit money into my bank account still, but things change with him on a day-to-day basis and so I just can't expect it.

Two of my girls are getting ready for dance and I'm going to take them to Anacortes in a little while.  Going to Anacortes for dance classes is going to eat up my gas and I've got almost nothing in the bank so the kids may not be able to dance until I have work -- and when I have work, my schedule may conflict with their dance classes.  Work will come first and the rest just follows.  What I have to do is what I have to do, but it sure doesn't feel very good. 

The girls and I pose outside at Mount Rushmore, 2008.  It was only a week-long vacation but it was one of the coolest vacations I'd ever been on.  The only vacation I can think of that was better was when I was a kid and we went to Long Beach, Washington.  Our little cabin was right on the sand and the waves in the back yard.  We spent about a week there and it was sunny the whole time. 

LATER:

Kids, I have a confession to make.

I am not really Mary Poppins.  I am not practically perfect in every way.

In fact, I am far from it.  I am an ordinary person who wants what is best for her kids and will go to any lengths to see that they are happy and healthy.  I am human and as such, I can make mistakes.
"We better keep an eye on this one.  She's tricky."  (Michael Banks in Mary Poppins)

I want you to know that moving away from Bozeman was not a mistake.  It was my only option for the fastest way to get from point A to point B: from no money to being able to support you with relative ease in the shortest amount of time and back to Bozeman again.  It may be hard now, but it will get better and that is a promise.