From November 29, 2010
What is pseudo-happiness?
It is a word I made up for a false happiness -- whether intentionally contrived
or not.
Examples of pseudo-happiness include: putting on a brave face when we really
don't feel like it; putting on a smile when we are dealing with inner turmoil
which we don't wish to share with others; or allowing ourselves to feel what we
think is happiness when in reality we are just fooling ourselves.
I am a pro at pseudo-happiness. I have
fooled so many people for so many years that they were utterly shocked and even
disbelieving when I told them what was truly my reality. To this day,
even after all that has happened, some
people that were close to me still have a hard time believing it.
I no longer care whether they believe it or not. What is true is true,
and there is nothing I can do to prove anything either way.
I have so many misgivings about so many aspects of my life right now, I am living the definition of the ultimate pseudo-happiness.
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